Sometimes, we just have to give our heart to someone else.

Thanks Affendi Sudin,
You've been a great guy. :)

I'm sorry, we'll go out soon ok.
After my exams!

1 Year:

I need to let go of you.
I can't be possibly into you, when you're not.
I don't know where your heart puts me inside,
I don't know: what i am to you. special? most special? or i'm just the same like other people.
You told me, You <3>
You told me, You miss me,
But you didn't said to me,

"Come Let's get back together, i still loves you soo much like before & i can't live without you....
I wish!

I wonder what makes other people easily find a new love after so long of a break ups.
and me fucking 1 year, i'm still like this!
I can't seem to be happy,
I can't seem to accept the fact that i'm single,
I hate it when people are asking,
Me and you: back together?BAHH.
I've always wished, you send me an sms in the morning,
Wishing me + stuffs.
BUT you don't, it depends on your mood.

I've sacrificed alot for you,
and now i have to end it.
I'm sorry, but i have too....
unless miracles happen.

Well,
This month is the month,
i should take note of.
List to do:

Celebrate fir's bday:
1st Surprise - With Shikin, Iqbal , Mizi & Huda.
2nd Surprise - With myself at Manhattan Fish Market.
3rd Suprise - At his house ( I didn't follow).
4th Surprise - This Friday, 16th July - With Looneys.
5th Surprise - With Gfs - surprise for Fir & Jana.

Starting from next week:
I'm all by myself.
I'm strong enuufff,
I know. but who cares?
NO ONE.

Yeah, Ive sacrificed alot for people whom i loved.
I don't know if they are blind or they don't care.
BUT what i get?
DO THEY SACRIFICE FOR ME?
DO THEY TAKE THE INITIATIVE TO SPEND TIME WITH ME?
DO THEY EVEN THINK IM EXIST?
BECOX WHEN I DIDNT MSGED THEM.
THEY SAY, " you forget me"
BUT WHEN I MAKE MYSELF FREE FOR THEM,
WHAT THEY DO? they destroyed it.

I'm just disappointed.

MAYBE, this is life.
I don't ask anything.
I only want you guys to have a heart and think.

I HATE OF BEING ALONE, COX I'M FCUKING 22 YEARS OLD,
LIVING WITHOUT ANY SIBLINGS WITH NON-UNDERSTANDING PARENTS!
AND I DONT FEEL LOVED BY ANYONE.
Period.

Impossible

Hellooo papples!

Long-ing MIA.
Lemme tell you guys:

Life: I've always been faking it good!I'm Not.
Living up to myself, make myself happy,
Super-Boring Single Life.

Shontelle-Impossible

So ME!

So the lyrics here:

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did

And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did

And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know

Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love and words
Empty promises will wear
I know, I know

And now when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open

Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible!
Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did..

fuck it!
seriously.

OK life's totally like a SHIT-ASS!
i should not bother people.
people should not bothers me.
and i feel like as if, everyone is avoiding me.
i wonder why.
fuck off!

AND THE THING IS,
WHENEVER I MSGED THEM,
THEY DONT BOTHER TO REPLY.
NOR TO PICK UP MY CALLS.

what's wrong with me?
I WONDER WHY WHENEVER I CALL S,
SHE DIDNT PICK UP THE FONE.

EVEN MSG, SHE DIDNT REPLY.
WAZZUPPP MANNN!!!!

and and FOR F,
he's different now.
we don't communicate that much.

i dont know! what's my life gonna be.

WHAT IS LIFE?
WHAT IS FRIENDS?
WHAT IS LOVE?

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY!

AND WHY NOWADAYS IM TRYING MY BEST TO CHEER MYSELF UP,
IT DIDNT SEEMS TO BE ACHIEVE-ABLE!

KNN CBB.

I WISHH I COULD SHUT MYSELF FROM THIS WORLD!!!

AND MY PARENTS SERIUSLY CONTROL ME TOO MUCH.
IM 22. TWENTY TWOO, GET IT?
OLD ENUFF TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF!
ESPECIALLY YOU DAD!!!

PLEASE LA!!! DONT BE NAIVE!!!!

FUCKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I bet you don't know.

Everytime i told myself,
everything's gonna be alright.

1. At first, i really love my job...
but this is the 3rd week.
- i begin to hate the job.
- its like i've been paid less and lesser,
just becoz, i don't perform well like they want to.
- this is my first time i've been in this situation.
- what ever i do, all wrong!!!
- i preferred my previous job in Civil Service College.
- even the agency sent me there to work, but i got all lovely colleagues to help me.
- but this, only ME, MANAGING DIRECTOR & PROGRAM DIRECTOR.
- boring nak mampos sia!!!!
- abeh complaint. just becoz i start work at 1o.30 to 6pm ( but balek slalu lambat*), abeh kasi keje yang blom di explain. mcm mane employee nak paham!!!!!!!!!!!!

-FCUK LAHH!!!!!!

&&&&&

When people ask me about you and me?
I say we are not together.
like you said, studies come first!
but why when you're msging me or meet me,
you called me B?
i like! but at the same time, ive been asking myself,
its like where am i? in you?
sometimes, i received a random msg from you:
You text me: " I miss you", "lurp u".


I dont know,
until when i can tahan living like this.
Yes, i know, we have limits.
Sometimes i feel that i SUCK at love.
i have few others that likes me,
but I REJECT THEM!
i'm tired to get on this BGR.

and the other thing is,
I still love firdaus as much as before.
Nah, i don't remind him.
Neither do i tell him, i need him back.
what for?
nak jadi ape- jadi lah.

" Ohh ohh For you, I would done whatever..
& i just cant believe we aint together.
& i wanna play it cool.
but i'm losing you....

-BABY by justin bieber. - lyrics is ohhh sooo us!!!

What's Life?

Time will tell, if we are meant to be together, WE WILL.
I won't be the same girl, you used to know.
Since you've decided not to have any relationships with me,
I accept it. But if you want me back with you.
Give me sometimes. I've sacrificed alot for you...
I won't be doing the same thing again.
I've already put a DOT here. so yeah.
Sorry, if i hurt you, but i didn't expect it also.

You told me, studies comes first. I shall HOLD on to you words.
You mean alot to me, but for now, i have to be mean.
8 months i've waited, you told me to wait for you for 7 months...
but i don't see any progress.
The answer i get from you is quite disappointing,
but HEY, this is not the end of the world.

You will be always be my friend.
Like you told me, no matter what, we won't be enemies!
No worries aite!

Memories shall remain forever.
I didn't tell anyone about this,
even to my closest ones.
Cox i don't wish to hurt myself anymore.

Right now,
What i need most,
is JOB.
DIPLOMA CERTIFICATE.
TRAVEL.
=)

Let love find you, not you find love.
It will surely come to you when it should be!
I've got a long way to go!
HAPPY READING PEOPLE! =)

Whats life with?

When you got no money,
people dont find you.
When you got money,
people find you.

When you have too many friends,
you dont know which one to priortise.
for you, you're just neutral,
but for them, they are not.
When you feel in the middle,
its hard for them to understand.

This year,
I just feel total different....
always the eve of my birthday,
i will imagine, my surprises from my lovely ones.
but this year, i dont even think i have that.

Guess, i must have bigg bigg moneyyyy, then people would love to go out with me...
hahahahaha!!!! da malam-malam gini, sery merepek.

Just soo you know,
This year,
my birthday, is just a birthday.
Nuff said.

AND AND AND,
i think i sufferedd from late sleeping.
HAHA, now, even this time, im not close to feel the sleeppyness!!!!